Slow progress is good progress?

I am right around 207#.Twice this week I have been 206.2# but I bounce back up so I do not know if I should count it.I sabotage myself I discovered. If I have a great number I allow myself treats and then the next one is back up again. I need to figure out how to be motivated by the dip and keep going instead of using it as a reason to slack.
I am working a ton and my exercise routine has suffered.I am not able to get to zumba and have not had the energy for the elliptical.I have done yoga but it is not enough!. In two weeks the workload should lighten and I can resume my level of activity.I do also have to admit I could push myself to work out but I have been reluctant to put in the effort.Is it the winter blahs?
Here is to a better post next time!

keeping track

I have lost control of my little widgets that show my progress.Somehow the little turtle is not moving to show progess! I like it when the turtle moves, even a little bit.I read on facebook one of my former co-workers has lost 6 pounds this week on WW.I want a huge drop! Admittedly I went away over the weekend and had a long drive and no computer access to keep track but I am sure I went over my daily allowance.I know I did not go over my weekly points though.I have not touched my activity points. I do not menstruate and lose track of my hormonal fluctuations and get snarky when I had a slight gain.I had an aha moment when I felt low abd cramps and was a bit tired.Unofficial weigh in today is 208.4.that means only 9 pounds until I am under 2 freaking hundered.
What will I do as a reward?? not food.I am going to lag on clothes because I am planning/hoping on doing some waredrobe makeover this summer.I want to wear the bikini I bought but have never worn due to embarrassment over my body.
Yesterday I had a sweat drenching workout on the elliptical.I kicked it!It is the first time I have reached over 500 Kcal in 30 minutes.Today was zumba.Dang I am sore.I think it is this not so wonderful cold.Thankfully it was sunny today making it somewhat tolerable.Winter can be beaten back to its cave anytime now.
i am pondering doing the couch to 5 k program.Running and I aren't exactly on speaking terms but the people who run seem to love it and I have read it is a kick ass love vibe for your body.Hm.i like kick ass body idea.
I will have to get used to the idea that I will never be able to eat without thinking about everything that goes in my mouth.My body loves to hold onto all those extra calories.All that garbage that My body DOES NOT need. I would not pour koolaid in a performance auto.i will not pollute my personal vehicle!

Be still your hearts

I know....two posts in a row...how could I? Welllllll...this morning I am down again 209.2.I hate to say it but this WW thing is working. I have fought against the idea of WW for a while now thinking I knew what healthy eating looked like.how can inbe eating wrong? I am a vegan (okay MOSTLY vegan) I did try on occasion to journal what I ate but it got away from me.This way I see exactly what I have eaten,how it impacts what I have left for the day and week.I no longer worry when I splurge on a couple cookies because I PLAN for them.I sound like a spokesperson already don't I? I am going away to see my boyfriend this weekend so am saving up most of my points to use while I am out of town.I am sure there will be some excess (hopefully in many areas!)
I like seeing my activity points add up! I have not dipped into them yet.I will be getting up early to use the elliptical for 30 minutes in the morning.I need to deflab.Tone.Condition and stretch.I wonder how long before I am under 200? i am so excited I am all squirmy inside!
Does anyone have any reward ideas for when i reach under 200#...for goal weight??I want to do something wonderful but not to spendy....

New Territory

I am in new weight loss territory.I weighed in this morning at the lowest i have been in almost 10 years.Then it was because I was going through a divorce.Now.....Now my friends it is because I am eating well and sweating loads. drum roooooooooolllllllllllll 209.6.
I know it is still over 200 and it looks alot to most people...well it IS alot.I love saying two-oh-something.It makes One-ninety-something seem so much more attainable.I am on my way to actually reaching my goal! I would adjust the ticker but I have forgotton the password at the moment.I am too giddy to fiddle right now!
In other news, I joined WW online.I am certainly getting an education.I figured banana chips were good because they were dried fruit.WRONG.I ate a half a days points just snacking.I will see how it goes for the next 3 months and by then i will either have the system down pat or will love it so much bcause of my success that I will want to keep it up!
on the agenda today is an elliptical work out,painting the kitchen and then maybe a pilates workout.The more I sweat the less I am needing the Lexapro.yay endorphins.
I am wondering what my goal prize shall be/ maybe I'll ask Sir.

Enough is enough

As you can see...anyone that has stuck around through my absence,that blog is, I have neglected this poor blog.It has been over two months and I have gained and lost the same 6 pounds. Admittedly it has been quite rough.I had been taking care of my terminally ill Grandma,then she had a stroke.It was already difficult because she had a poor appetite.The Stroke caused swallowing difficulty as well as aphasia.She was placed in hospice one week after the stroke and died two days later.During all of this I was trying to go to school,working on a new relationship, as well as jugglin work, kids and home remodelling!
I forgot! I went back to the ED so my schedule changed, I overhauled my bathroom, along with other house updates.I had a man fall through the kitchen ceiling during one of these updates.
I am working out 1 -2 hours a day this week.Partly I think to keep my mind off mourning.I don't know how much weight loss is ideal.I am putting one foot in front of another and going til my body rocks! I will write more this week.I will have a weight loss breakthrough! I will see my collar bones!I will love my arms!I will love my thighs!

Humble Apologies

JAFG Since you are my only known follower I will direct this to you.I am sorry I have been absent for quite some time now.My father had multiple vessel by pass surgery on November 1 .He had weakness and chest burning.Initially he refused to go to the emergency dept.As he already has 11 stents, he knew the next step was a major one.He had an angio on a Tuesday.While he was still sedated the cardiologist spoke to me and asked if he was eating lard with a spoon because the stent that was inserted 8 months previous was 99% blocked already.he ended up spending 13 days hospitalized,The aftermath is more intense than even,I as an acutely trained nurse was prepared for.
The driving while he was in the hospital was arduous but caring for him since he has been home is worse.I run errands, cook,stay the night,take him to appointments ,clean the house etc.He cannot drive for a while.Slowly he is getting strength back and geting back to his irrate self.Isn't it funny how when people are very ill they are easier to care for?
Back to me here, since this blog IS about me... I am around 211.I rose to 216 last week.I think that was due to time of the month.Over all not bad for eating all the wrong things and on the go going back and forth to the hospital.
I have a goal to be 205 or below by December 17 2010.I have missed many zumba classes but have picked up with the elliptical.I do have to crank the resistance up to 6 to get the same sweat factor as zumba..and frankly the elliptical is boring.I can only stand 30 minutes at a time. hey give a shout out if you are alive out there too!

On vacation

I am off of work this week and frankly I could get used to this.I like having time to do things and getting them done.I have a million little projects that wait for me .I am not getting to all of them but I will make a list and cross them off as i accomplish one.I am making sure I have time for physical activity this week too.Every.Single.Day. Twice a day if I can do it.

I went hot tubbing last night with someone I have not seen in a while and he mentioned how much weight I have lost! yay it is noticeable.At dinner last week a close friend said,"You are getting so skinny...I hate you "No she did not really mean it but it is great to be envied.

Weigh in this morning is 212.6.Yay. I am so close to my first goal of 210.When i reach that I will send my comfy chair to be reupholstered and by the time it gets back I wil be at my supper-but-not-final-goal of 199#I know it is not a magic number but just not to be two---something.I will never be a delicate flower that some man will toss over his shoulder but to know someone may consider it at least would be nice.
My appetite continues to be much smaller.I am smply content with less.I threw away most of a cinnabon caramel bar yesterday....GASP...Something I never would have done 6 months ago.
I am reading yet another book This one is "Mindless eating" by Brian Wansink Ph.D.It explores the psychology of why we eat too much,our dicernment of how much we are eating and how to correct that.Quite the fodder for the brain.
plans for this week include a live Rocky Horror Picture Show event,A drag Queen show,dinner out,more hot tubbing,a costume party and a date.A full week indeed.