status report week one 2012

I did 30 minutes on the elliptical Monday, Tuesday and Wednesday. I ought to mix it up a little because I will most likely get bored and with boredom come disinterest right?On the other hand I have lost weight by rote. Eating the same exact foods and doing the same old work out day in and day out making it a routine I never varied from.It was as second nature as pouring coffee in the morning and I missed it when I skipped.
I have been making some fine vegan soups this week.It certainly is easier to eat right when I am prepared to do it. Eating on the fly is not a good thing for me. I make bad choices , like mozzeralla sticks and a whole bag of sugared almonds.This morning I am eating a parsnip-carrot puree seasoned with sun dried tomatoes and other spices.
I have noticed my posture has been poor lately. I have been bending at the waist and hunching my shoulders over. That cannot be attractive and accentuates my pooch. One more thing to be aware of right?
Weigh in this morning is 216.8 which is a decrease of 1.6 # since monday. Not bad. Once I bemoaned that i was only losing a very little each week but then a fellow nurse dtold me that at a pound a week it is stillover 50# in a year and still significant! Okay I got it.
I wish I did not have these periods of back sliding so I would have to go back over ground I had already been before. Does a body snap back quicker once it was in shape? We shall find out!. Onward .

confession

I got down to 204 late August 2011.I never did come close to the 50# loss I was seeking.Perhaps that was not realistic. I have been plagued by a left heel spur that nixed zumba and running and now a left forearm strain that makes weight lifting impossible.I have eaten with abandon this holiday season. . I am at 218.2 as of yesterday. Yes I can still wear my clothes but I am not comfortable in them. I have enjoyed fuller breasts but the wobbly fuller thighs have been a real attack on my body awareness. Another downfall as I see it is I have not been accountable to myself in this blog. I have also ignored the tools from WW namely because online computers are not available to me anymore at work and thatr is where my temptation is. I am quitting weight Watchers in favor of blance and accountability.I may have to enlist my boyfriends help here.


SOOOOoo.


1. make a real goal.My goal is to be 199# by March 11 2012. That is 10 weeks.


2. work out 5 x a week 30 minutes minimum.


3.Blog on this site 4 x a week


4. write down my meal intake every day.





I am also working on having my house always "company ready" I am not expecting perfection but I know having a tidier house will help my mental status and overall health.

April showers

Tracking and exercising do the trick.I cannot guesstimate period.I will always forget to count something and I will always underestimate the points.I will count it all,even when I know I am over. Happily more zumba classes are being offered at the local commuity center making the 12 hour shifts not such a factor in my work out schedule.I will have the option of attending a class after the end of my shift on Wednesdays at work.I wonder if I will have the oomph to do it. All I know is that I want to lose 6# in 4 weeks.Why does the number on the scale affect my self esteem so much?I do have to own up to my mistakes.I should feel like shit when I cheat .I know I can stick to the plan! 177 days until I am 40.Takes a deep breath.Not even 6 months to drop 25 or so pounds.That is less than 5 pounds a month.I want to lose in my butt and hips.I wish there were such a thing as spot reducing.I am vain.I like my breasts .I want them to stay just as they are!.Tomorrow is the official weigh in day.My thoughts are scattered.I have a " complicated" relationship and it takes alot out of me.Maybe my weight is one thing I can actually control in my life.Love,the economy,the kids,all are things I cannot control. 205.6

Backsliding

yes,I have been allowing myself to backslide.I was sooooo close to the major goal of being under 200# then poof! I lost my way! That is the simple explanation but let's look at really happened: 1.I stopped making execise an almost daily priority 2.I stopped tracking what I was eating. 3.I felt entitled to have what I wanted because of my progress. oh DEAR. Stop! You are overweight beause of those exact same behaviors and those same thoughts! This week I have begun to turn it around.I have worked out on the elliptical twice burning 460 and 450 Kcal each time.I have walked 2.5 miles.I have done a yoga video.Tonight I am going to zumba.I have not been tracking yet but will. I am so enjoying the TWO pair of size 12 pants I bought on clearane no less for $3.99. I have not missed the time elsewhere in life that I have invested in exercise.Yes exercise IS an investment.I will have many returns on ut! Cookies are not an investment they are an expense.YAY me!.I hope to have good things to report!

Soooo close!

203.6# Amazing! I am getting closer to a huge goal which is to be 0ne hundred anything! 185 would be sweet.169# is my goal weight for weight watchers.I do not see me getting there but hey! I have made it this far! I am over halfway to my 50# loss before my 40th birthday and i still have nearly 7 months to do it in.That means I have to loose about 3.5 # a month! SOOOOO doable.The ex BF has noticed my weight loss from a profile picture I have.A co- worker noticed how svelte I looked.I am excited to have bought a pair of size 12 dress pants because the 14 were too big.A little over a year ago I jumped up and down to get some 14 over my thighs,now they are saggy in the seat and crotch! I still do not have my goal prize.I am thinking of a cool corset but I will never wear it as it is neither period or fetish.Shoes? Maybe.I will let you know when I get there.I wonder if I can do it this week? Improbable ,yet still a chance! I need to step up the physical activity.I have allowed myself to be in a rut.Not good.The North eastern winter has gone on forever and taken its' toll on the psyche of many around here including me.Updates to follow.

Slow progress is good progress?

I am right around 207#.Twice this week I have been 206.2# but I bounce back up so I do not know if I should count it.I sabotage myself I discovered. If I have a great number I allow myself treats and then the next one is back up again. I need to figure out how to be motivated by the dip and keep going instead of using it as a reason to slack.
I am working a ton and my exercise routine has suffered.I am not able to get to zumba and have not had the energy for the elliptical.I have done yoga but it is not enough!. In two weeks the workload should lighten and I can resume my level of activity.I do also have to admit I could push myself to work out but I have been reluctant to put in the effort.Is it the winter blahs?
Here is to a better post next time!

keeping track

I have lost control of my little widgets that show my progress.Somehow the little turtle is not moving to show progess! I like it when the turtle moves, even a little bit.I read on facebook one of my former co-workers has lost 6 pounds this week on WW.I want a huge drop! Admittedly I went away over the weekend and had a long drive and no computer access to keep track but I am sure I went over my daily allowance.I know I did not go over my weekly points though.I have not touched my activity points. I do not menstruate and lose track of my hormonal fluctuations and get snarky when I had a slight gain.I had an aha moment when I felt low abd cramps and was a bit tired.Unofficial weigh in today is 208.4.that means only 9 pounds until I am under 2 freaking hundered.
What will I do as a reward?? not food.I am going to lag on clothes because I am planning/hoping on doing some waredrobe makeover this summer.I want to wear the bikini I bought but have never worn due to embarrassment over my body.
Yesterday I had a sweat drenching workout on the elliptical.I kicked it!It is the first time I have reached over 500 Kcal in 30 minutes.Today was zumba.Dang I am sore.I think it is this not so wonderful cold.Thankfully it was sunny today making it somewhat tolerable.Winter can be beaten back to its cave anytime now.
i am pondering doing the couch to 5 k program.Running and I aren't exactly on speaking terms but the people who run seem to love it and I have read it is a kick ass love vibe for your body.Hm.i like kick ass body idea.
I will have to get used to the idea that I will never be able to eat without thinking about everything that goes in my mouth.My body loves to hold onto all those extra calories.All that garbage that My body DOES NOT need. I would not pour koolaid in a performance auto.i will not pollute my personal vehicle!