I am down to 218.2.Runs around the room waving my arms and whooping.Very good news indeed.Two weeks ago I felt like this was a battle I could not make advancement in.I ,in the interest of fairness do have to report that I have eaten some bad things in the last month.I am relying on you to hear my confession.I cleaned out my car and realized I ate TWO large containers of pringles...all by myself.Work is a particular difficult place.The social worker keeps a bucket...not just a bowl of assorted brightly wrapped chocolates .I stop by the chocolate bucket and grab a handful whenever I feel stressed,which is ofton and those yummy little buggers add up.AND there is always some occasion for food to be brought in.There was a staff meeting so I had ultimate chocolate cake,family brought in gormet cookies and there are all the pot lucks.
I feel bad about all of it because my body WANTS to be healthy and I have been working against it.Despite all my treachery, it still managed to lose weight. I will not further undermine my own efforts.I want to find out what can be accomplished if I am not cheating.
I am impressed by this book The end of overeating.I will share my review and all the helpful ideas I got from the book in hopefully the next post.I borrowed the book from the library but think I may end up buying it.It is that good!
I need your help.I want to have a non food reward for getting to 210#.I already have one for 199# which is to have a chair I love reupholstered.It doesn't have to be huge, but significant enough that I want to strive for it.A massage? A pedicure? I am open to any ideas.
Friday, September 24, 2010
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
A picture,finally
This is me on my 38th birthday, So a little less than a year ago.I think I am about the same weight as I was then.It will give a general Idea where I am starting.I will have to post pictures of when I was 250# .Twenty five pounds does make quite an impact on most peoples frames.I have pictures of when I was post divorce and 170s #(Stress is a wonderful diet aid)As You can see 220# or so on me doesnt "look bad" as I hear all the time.I do not want to be content with not looking bad but want to also look and FEEL great.I am reading a book on how America overeats because the food industry DESIGNS food so we crave it,overeat and then get MORE.Does it make you mad?It sure gets me irate.I will post the name of the book and the full review.make good choices! nourish your body,soul and love yourself like you are your best girlfriend!
Monday, September 20, 2010
Drum Rolllllllllllllll!
Please, I would like to welcome a Follower! yes, JAFG if my first follower on blogger ! (I will keep her and love her and pet her and name her George!) Okay..I am excited , yes?But the main object of this post is to say TODAY is actually three hundred eighty five days until I am 40!The blog finally fits its name.
I did get another scale and I do like it much better.I have doubts about the fat percentage feature on it.I find the number just unbelevable.perhaps I should do research to see what a reasonable fat persentage is and extrapolate from there.You can see I am hedging can't you ? yeah.Its because I AM.The number makes me queasy and want to eat saw dust with hummus on it only for a few months.Come closer and I will whisper it to you....it says I am almost 50% FAT! My hydration level on this scale was low about 35% so I wonder what the truth of it all is.I will keep you posted.
I should post some photos and get your input on all of this.
I walked around the building and up an incline for my lunch break and will be going to Zumba tonight before taking my sons out to dinner for the younger ones birthday.I promise to eat healthy.I bet I can find a dish that is yummy and in my guidelines.
Has anyone had experience with WW? I see all those ads and DANG Jennifer Hudson looks awesome.She does not look like she was ever related to herself! Is being responsible to many people and having a formula to follow a key? I wait for the big cosmic click of it all where I unzip this padding and step out of my former body and gush how I discovered the secret to slimness just a week ago!
I wonder if I will look older as I lose the weight.Fat is a great filler. I do not want to be a haggard looking wench but at the same time Who wants to be the wallflower feeling frumpy and unhappy?
OH BTW< I will be going back to blonde tomorrow.I have had red hair long enough and am ready to be back in familiar territory.
I did get another scale and I do like it much better.I have doubts about the fat percentage feature on it.I find the number just unbelevable.perhaps I should do research to see what a reasonable fat persentage is and extrapolate from there.You can see I am hedging can't you ? yeah.Its because I AM.The number makes me queasy and want to eat saw dust with hummus on it only for a few months.Come closer and I will whisper it to you....it says I am almost 50% FAT! My hydration level on this scale was low about 35% so I wonder what the truth of it all is.I will keep you posted.
I should post some photos and get your input on all of this.
I walked around the building and up an incline for my lunch break and will be going to Zumba tonight before taking my sons out to dinner for the younger ones birthday.I promise to eat healthy.I bet I can find a dish that is yummy and in my guidelines.
Has anyone had experience with WW? I see all those ads and DANG Jennifer Hudson looks awesome.She does not look like she was ever related to herself! Is being responsible to many people and having a formula to follow a key? I wait for the big cosmic click of it all where I unzip this padding and step out of my former body and gush how I discovered the secret to slimness just a week ago!
I wonder if I will look older as I lose the weight.Fat is a great filler. I do not want to be a haggard looking wench but at the same time Who wants to be the wallflower feeling frumpy and unhappy?
OH BTW< I will be going back to blonde tomorrow.I have had red hair long enough and am ready to be back in familiar territory.
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Deep breath
First of all..Is anyone out there?Am I just yammering for myself?Thats okay if I am just wondering,I promise not to feel like the kid who invited everyone to their birthday party and noone showed up.
I have had a terribly stressful week at work.I have been yanked into doing another job i was not hired for and told to "buck up".Hm.If I did not have straight days and good pay i would tell them to cram it.Noone is manning my station while I am gone and therefore the load when I get back will be horrendus.I am not looking forward to it.The boss wants to talk to me about how I fee.Heh."hang in there,things will get better"
There is more to it than I am laying down here but the end result is I ate a ton of chocolate this week to combat the frustration,stress and pain of being straight on my feet all day.
I need to get a new scale.Mine is all over the place and I would merely like a correct reading to know where I am.I think I will have to part with some hard cash to get thenaccuracy this weight loss journey calls for.
Side note: Should I document fluctuations in my weight or just the losses?the fluctuations may help me chart my monthly.dunno.
389 days til I am 40.Getting close to the blog title.heh.
I have had a terribly stressful week at work.I have been yanked into doing another job i was not hired for and told to "buck up".Hm.If I did not have straight days and good pay i would tell them to cram it.Noone is manning my station while I am gone and therefore the load when I get back will be horrendus.I am not looking forward to it.The boss wants to talk to me about how I fee.Heh."hang in there,things will get better"
There is more to it than I am laying down here but the end result is I ate a ton of chocolate this week to combat the frustration,stress and pain of being straight on my feet all day.
I need to get a new scale.Mine is all over the place and I would merely like a correct reading to know where I am.I think I will have to part with some hard cash to get thenaccuracy this weight loss journey calls for.
Side note: Should I document fluctuations in my weight or just the losses?the fluctuations may help me chart my monthly.dunno.
389 days til I am 40.Getting close to the blog title.heh.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
confusion and serenity
Confused? yes.IThe scale has me all over the place from 219 to 230.I am not sure where I am in my womanly cycle so I am not able yet to lay blame at the feet of Mother Nature.I am still being told I look more toned/thinner.I felt my body while I was in bed and I do believe I can feel my ribs (ALMOST!) I do not think I am in the next size down but I am out of the liars stage of the size I have been wearing,namely I really ought to have been in the next size up but refused to admit it.I am wearing my clothes comfortably.
I have gone from being a 38 DD to a 38D.Am I unhappy about losing my boobage?Not so much because I know thats what goes first,next belly? thighs? I am game.
I saw myself naked in the mirror today and realized how sorely those 40-50 # need to come off.
I made been and roasted red pepper burgers tonight.Overall I ate well today I took brom for a walk and climbed Tiger Hill.I think of my trudge uphill as my feet in four wheel drive digging into the dirt and just grabbing at the earth.It is satisfying everytime I get to the top.Yesterday I went to Zumba for an hour.Zumba helps me to feel sexy and in touch with my body.
I notice I am down to 391 days til I become 40.
My Dear friend E is having trouble with her weight journey.She has had an eating disorder in her past and does not want to go to that extreme again to be thin.I can see that concern.I don't want to be so militant that I have no ability to think outside my plan .Do I have to be so single minded that I become unhealthy ,regimented and go from overeating to nazivegan.
I have noticed when I go on long arduous walks I experience ease of thought and am able to explore ideas that cannot summon any other part of the day.I notice the sweet pea flowers entwined in the fence also covered in buoys.I wish I coul channel my thoughts as I walk into this blog.it would be such good material.
I have gone from being a 38 DD to a 38D.Am I unhappy about losing my boobage?Not so much because I know thats what goes first,next belly? thighs? I am game.
I saw myself naked in the mirror today and realized how sorely those 40-50 # need to come off.
I made been and roasted red pepper burgers tonight.Overall I ate well today I took brom for a walk and climbed Tiger Hill.I think of my trudge uphill as my feet in four wheel drive digging into the dirt and just grabbing at the earth.It is satisfying everytime I get to the top.Yesterday I went to Zumba for an hour.Zumba helps me to feel sexy and in touch with my body.
I notice I am down to 391 days til I become 40.
My Dear friend E is having trouble with her weight journey.She has had an eating disorder in her past and does not want to go to that extreme again to be thin.I can see that concern.I don't want to be so militant that I have no ability to think outside my plan .Do I have to be so single minded that I become unhealthy ,regimented and go from overeating to nazivegan.
I have noticed when I go on long arduous walks I experience ease of thought and am able to explore ideas that cannot summon any other part of the day.I notice the sweet pea flowers entwined in the fence also covered in buoys.I wish I coul channel my thoughts as I walk into this blog.it would be such good material.
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Figuring out what I am doing right
I have Lost weight in the last two weeks..I am talking seriously 10 TEN! pounds here! Is it the fact I have been mindful of increasing my Vegan Protein diet? Is it that I added the Tiger Hill walk to my routine? It definately is not lowered stress or more sleep.I want to pin point this so I can keep it up! !(199 # Here I come! ,but we all know the ultimate goal is 180 #)
Sunday, September 5, 2010
a weeks summary!
Seth and I did go to the State Fair and I was pretty tame only splurging on a wine slushie and some taffy.I love watching them make it right in front of me on that old fashioned puller and seeing it drop in the basket from the auto wrapper. I did get a sunburn on my chest and back. I did not count on the sun being directly overhead.We had to leave early,it was just so uncomfortable we were sapped of energy and the desire to have fun.
Zumba was cancelled two days this week due to the heat .because of the heat, I was not inclined to get motivated on my own.This weekend was a different story !Saturday being cooler, I went to Zumba and then walked Brom for 2.5 miles and UP Tiger Hill.For those who do not know Tiger Hill is legendary for being steep and a pain to get up with any mode of transportation.There is even a childrens book about a Bus making it up the Hill in the Winter.I felt every inch of the Hill in my Butt and thighs.Today I did 30 minutes on the elliptical AND did the walk with the Tiger Hill in the end.Over all the eating has been good.
I am thinking of adding lemon to my water as a natural diuretic.SOme of the dishes I have been making have olives and capers in them .I feel like I have fat little feet when I wake up.
I am considering weight watchers.I see so many people have used it with success.I have never been on a structured program before.I see jennifer Hudson now and WOW she looks amazing.
I know things get assigned point values and you have to take your vitamin and water for the day all good things but those meetings must be magic because it all seems common sense of what I know.
Good News! They are offering Zumba in Clifton Springs on Tuesday and Fridays now.I can make up a class I missed no problem.I am much more on track when I am moving.I am concious of my body and what I am putting in it.
I want new scrubs but will wait because I do not intend to sink a fortune in several different sizes. I will get rid of things that are too big and wear what flatters me.Here I come.
I am fixated on being under 200.199 seems like a dream to me. I have not been under 200 since the divorce from the kids father.Not to have a 2 in front of my weight will be a pure bliss for me. One anything will fell smaller, sexier and manageable.
Up coming posts...weight loss surgery and feeling frumpy!
Zumba was cancelled two days this week due to the heat .because of the heat, I was not inclined to get motivated on my own.This weekend was a different story !Saturday being cooler, I went to Zumba and then walked Brom for 2.5 miles and UP Tiger Hill.For those who do not know Tiger Hill is legendary for being steep and a pain to get up with any mode of transportation.There is even a childrens book about a Bus making it up the Hill in the Winter.I felt every inch of the Hill in my Butt and thighs.Today I did 30 minutes on the elliptical AND did the walk with the Tiger Hill in the end.Over all the eating has been good.
I am thinking of adding lemon to my water as a natural diuretic.SOme of the dishes I have been making have olives and capers in them .I feel like I have fat little feet when I wake up.
I am considering weight watchers.I see so many people have used it with success.I have never been on a structured program before.I see jennifer Hudson now and WOW she looks amazing.
I know things get assigned point values and you have to take your vitamin and water for the day all good things but those meetings must be magic because it all seems common sense of what I know.
Good News! They are offering Zumba in Clifton Springs on Tuesday and Fridays now.I can make up a class I missed no problem.I am much more on track when I am moving.I am concious of my body and what I am putting in it.
I want new scrubs but will wait because I do not intend to sink a fortune in several different sizes. I will get rid of things that are too big and wear what flatters me.Here I come.
I am fixated on being under 200.199 seems like a dream to me. I have not been under 200 since the divorce from the kids father.Not to have a 2 in front of my weight will be a pure bliss for me. One anything will fell smaller, sexier and manageable.
Up coming posts...weight loss surgery and feeling frumpy!
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