I am off of work this week and frankly I could get used to this.I like having time to do things and getting them done.I have a million little projects that wait for me .I am not getting to all of them but I will make a list and cross them off as i accomplish one.I am making sure I have time for physical activity this week too.Every.Single.Day. Twice a day if I can do it.
I went hot tubbing last night with someone I have not seen in a while and he mentioned how much weight I have lost! yay it is noticeable.At dinner last week a close friend said,"You are getting so skinny...I hate you "No she did not really mean it but it is great to be envied.
Weigh in this morning is 212.6.Yay. I am so close to my first goal of 210.When i reach that I will send my comfy chair to be reupholstered and by the time it gets back I wil be at my supper-but-not-final-goal of 199#I know it is not a magic number but just not to be two---something.I will never be a delicate flower that some man will toss over his shoulder but to know someone may consider it at least would be nice.
My appetite continues to be much smaller.I am smply content with less.I threw away most of a cinnabon caramel bar yesterday....GASP...Something I never would have done 6 months ago.
I am reading yet another book This one is "Mindless eating" by Brian Wansink Ph.D.It explores the psychology of why we eat too much,our dicernment of how much we are eating and how to correct that.Quite the fodder for the brain.
plans for this week include a live Rocky Horror Picture Show event,A drag Queen show,dinner out,more hot tubbing,a costume party and a date.A full week indeed.
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Sore Bum
Yes, My Bum It is sore.It is asking me WHY WHY??WHY!
So in an open letter to my sore bum I share with it and you gentle reader why.
Dear Bum,
I love you.It is not the love of an ardent romeo or mother to child but oneof acceptance.I am letting my love be known so i will move you,shake you,groove you and make you into something I LIKE as well as love.I am walking,stomping ,running and Zumbaing my way to a better BUM.I know I am shrinking your bottom line, but (ha ha) think of all the cute panties,skirts and tight jeans that will show case you! it is all for you.It is not punishment but discipline!
Your Mistress
So in an open letter to my sore bum I share with it and you gentle reader why.
Dear Bum,
I love you.It is not the love of an ardent romeo or mother to child but oneof acceptance.I am letting my love be known so i will move you,shake you,groove you and make you into something I LIKE as well as love.I am walking,stomping ,running and Zumbaing my way to a better BUM.I know I am shrinking your bottom line, but (ha ha) think of all the cute panties,skirts and tight jeans that will show case you! it is all for you.It is not punishment but discipline!
Your Mistress
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
two months in
I still have 356 days left to lose about 35 pounds.My losses are not as exciting as The Biggest Loser but it is happening.I am not as overweight as those contenstants either.I wonder how I would feel if I worked out as much as the conteatants do.I know now my bum aches and burns in ways I forgot existed.
Yesterday I went to zumba and took the dog for a long walk.Todayanother long walk plus the loop up Tiger Hill.
An interesting thing is happening.My appetite is decreasing.I want to eat while at work..which I am betting on is stress.At home I nibble but do not have the drive to consume like before.Is my stomach shrinking? Is the exercise shutting something off in my brain?I'll take it while it lasts...which will be right before my next period!
I am enjoying buying smaller scrubs and giving away the larger ones.It is tempting to keep things I have spent money on but I want to have no excuse to expand again.I want the discomfort of my waistband to be the warning I need to keep my bum moving.
Yesterday I went to zumba and took the dog for a long walk.Todayanother long walk plus the loop up Tiger Hill.
An interesting thing is happening.My appetite is decreasing.I want to eat while at work..which I am betting on is stress.At home I nibble but do not have the drive to consume like before.Is my stomach shrinking? Is the exercise shutting something off in my brain?I'll take it while it lasts...which will be right before my next period!
I am enjoying buying smaller scrubs and giving away the larger ones.It is tempting to keep things I have spent money on but I want to have no excuse to expand again.I want the discomfort of my waistband to be the warning I need to keep my bum moving.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
can I do it?
I need to have a fitness goal.Not just the weight loss but to be able to accomplish something with my body I have never done before.I cruised the net and think I am going to do a 5 K run.I know I can walk 5 K but I am going to try dang hard to run it in one month.I know longer training time would be beneficial but winter is coming in these here Northern States and if I put it off it will not get done. I have been alternating walking and jogging the dog for a few weeks now.I am going to master a plan and do this.I put it here in the blog so I have at least JAFG holding me to it right?
I am down 13.8 pounds.That is a quarter of my goal!Pick up a 10# sack of potatoes and a 2# block of cheese and throw in a half gallon of icecream. That was extra all me.It certainly sounds more impressive put that way.
I have a weird question though.WHERE does it go?Is it sweat off? Do I poop it off? Do skinny faries come and harvest the excess while I sleep? tell me!!! Or don't.Just don't bring it back.
I had a great time last night with My sister-friend Jean.She took me out to a great dinner.We split a bottle of wine and dessert.I was flying happy after the first glass so quit there.We both ate less than half of our entrees and saved them for lunch another day.
I spoke to a friend who has had gastric bypass surgery.He told me of the minute portions he is consuming now,just due to the fact that his body can handle no more and a remark he made struck a note with me.He said,"Now I see how little the human body really needs to survive." Wow.maybe I need to think less of enjoyment and more of survival and fueling my body.Do you ask if you NEED the food you are reaching for or just want it?I do ot but I may start.I know a food journal is a good idea,but it peters out after a few days.Any input??
I am down 13.8 pounds.That is a quarter of my goal!Pick up a 10# sack of potatoes and a 2# block of cheese and throw in a half gallon of icecream. That was extra all me.It certainly sounds more impressive put that way.
I have a weird question though.WHERE does it go?Is it sweat off? Do I poop it off? Do skinny faries come and harvest the excess while I sleep? tell me!!! Or don't.Just don't bring it back.
I had a great time last night with My sister-friend Jean.She took me out to a great dinner.We split a bottle of wine and dessert.I was flying happy after the first glass so quit there.We both ate less than half of our entrees and saved them for lunch another day.
I spoke to a friend who has had gastric bypass surgery.He told me of the minute portions he is consuming now,just due to the fact that his body can handle no more and a remark he made struck a note with me.He said,"Now I see how little the human body really needs to survive." Wow.maybe I need to think less of enjoyment and more of survival and fueling my body.Do you ask if you NEED the food you are reaching for or just want it?I do ot but I may start.I know a food journal is a good idea,but it peters out after a few days.Any input??
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Birthday!
Sunday was my 39th birthday.I am losing tiny amounts.Still a loss.I have celebrated moderately.
I learned my beloved i pod classic had a dead hard drive and the cost to repair it was beyond reasonable.Thus,I recycled it an got 10% off a nano which suits me better!.It clips to my clothes,has a built in pedometer,calorie counter and comes in neat funky colors!Did I mention it is dang cute?
Family and personal drama abounds.I will not allow it to knock me off course.I am strong.i am proud.I am progressing.I am becoming me again.Join me.
I learned my beloved i pod classic had a dead hard drive and the cost to repair it was beyond reasonable.Thus,I recycled it an got 10% off a nano which suits me better!.It clips to my clothes,has a built in pedometer,calorie counter and comes in neat funky colors!Did I mention it is dang cute?
Family and personal drama abounds.I will not allow it to knock me off course.I am strong.i am proud.I am progressing.I am becoming me again.Join me.
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Shame on me
I did not realize how much I have been neglecting this blog!I have had no weight break throughs,nor any real breakDowns.
I have been thinking on what my zumba instructor keeps saying about reaching out and grabbing those calories that are just for the taking and to not hold back.We all steal beg and borrow time for ourselves and we need to use it to its fullest.She is quite motivational.An hour after I work out I am fully recovered.So why not go as hard as I can.i do have a problem though...I have urine leakage when i do some jumps and bouncing.i drink so much water,it is impossible to fully empty my bladder.I wear a pad but I fear it will leak out my clothes.i am still trying to do the elliptical on the days I do not zumba.The rain has made it hard to do the long walk and Tiger hill but I have managed twice this week already.
Okay this book " The End of Overeating ,taking Control of the Insatiable American Appetite " touched a chord with me.In the beginning in interviewed people in the presence of some delectable treat and many had difficulty ignoring the chocolate or cookie to complete the interview becoming noticeably fidgety and distracted.they were asked why and most readily admitted they were obsessed with preoccupation with the food.
How many of us have been like this?I have.I recall not having had lunch yet,concentrating on what I could eat for dinner.It had to be pointed out to me how silly I was being. It did not end it though.WHY?
Food in this country is DESIGNED to keep us coming back for more,thus fat.Salt,sugar,and fat are layered in unnatural combinations to appeal to our pleasure centers and be addictive.The maximum reward--yumminess is calculated in proportion to the negative side effects( nausea,sluggishness,bloating) to keep us hooked.The trick restaurants use have nothing to do with healthful food but bottom dollars.We are nothing but income and money does not come from occasional customers but those who come back repeatedly.It pays to super size for the industry.We enjoy the product,think we are getting a good deal,all the while harming our bodies!
In the end what can we do?Resisting these foods are nigh impossible as they are intended.There is no little amount you can cheat.Take your danger foods out of those equation.For me, I cannot allow chips or chocolate in my realm or I am de railed.There is no ."just a little" for me.
what to do instead?Exercise.It is reward on many levels.I feel and look better.I feel sexier.I feel powerful,sleek and it negates the urge to have a mouthful of artificial food.the book is much more motivational than I am.It focussed me.please open your eyes.See what you CAN do for YOU.You are NOT helpless.Educate yourself and learn to defend your body.
I have been thinking on what my zumba instructor keeps saying about reaching out and grabbing those calories that are just for the taking and to not hold back.We all steal beg and borrow time for ourselves and we need to use it to its fullest.She is quite motivational.An hour after I work out I am fully recovered.So why not go as hard as I can.i do have a problem though...I have urine leakage when i do some jumps and bouncing.i drink so much water,it is impossible to fully empty my bladder.I wear a pad but I fear it will leak out my clothes.i am still trying to do the elliptical on the days I do not zumba.The rain has made it hard to do the long walk and Tiger hill but I have managed twice this week already.
Okay this book " The End of Overeating ,taking Control of the Insatiable American Appetite " touched a chord with me.In the beginning in interviewed people in the presence of some delectable treat and many had difficulty ignoring the chocolate or cookie to complete the interview becoming noticeably fidgety and distracted.they were asked why and most readily admitted they were obsessed with preoccupation with the food.
How many of us have been like this?I have.I recall not having had lunch yet,concentrating on what I could eat for dinner.It had to be pointed out to me how silly I was being. It did not end it though.WHY?
Food in this country is DESIGNED to keep us coming back for more,thus fat.Salt,sugar,and fat are layered in unnatural combinations to appeal to our pleasure centers and be addictive.The maximum reward--yumminess is calculated in proportion to the negative side effects( nausea,sluggishness,bloating) to keep us hooked.The trick restaurants use have nothing to do with healthful food but bottom dollars.We are nothing but income and money does not come from occasional customers but those who come back repeatedly.It pays to super size for the industry.We enjoy the product,think we are getting a good deal,all the while harming our bodies!
In the end what can we do?Resisting these foods are nigh impossible as they are intended.There is no little amount you can cheat.Take your danger foods out of those equation.For me, I cannot allow chips or chocolate in my realm or I am de railed.There is no ."just a little" for me.
what to do instead?Exercise.It is reward on many levels.I feel and look better.I feel sexier.I feel powerful,sleek and it negates the urge to have a mouthful of artificial food.the book is much more motivational than I am.It focussed me.please open your eyes.See what you CAN do for YOU.You are NOT helpless.Educate yourself and learn to defend your body.
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