JAFG Since you are my only known follower I will direct this to you.I am sorry I have been absent for quite some time now.My father had multiple vessel by pass surgery on November 1 .He had weakness and chest burning.Initially he refused to go to the emergency dept.As he already has 11 stents, he knew the next step was a major one.He had an angio on a Tuesday.While he was still sedated the cardiologist spoke to me and asked if he was eating lard with a spoon because the stent that was inserted 8 months previous was 99% blocked already.he ended up spending 13 days hospitalized,The aftermath is more intense than even,I as an acutely trained nurse was prepared for.
The driving while he was in the hospital was arduous but caring for him since he has been home is worse.I run errands, cook,stay the night,take him to appointments ,clean the house etc.He cannot drive for a while.Slowly he is getting strength back and geting back to his irrate self.Isn't it funny how when people are very ill they are easier to care for?
Back to me here, since this blog IS about me... I am around 211.I rose to 216 last week.I think that was due to time of the month.Over all not bad for eating all the wrong things and on the go going back and forth to the hospital.
I have a goal to be 205 or below by December 17 2010.I have missed many zumba classes but have picked up with the elliptical.I do have to crank the resistance up to 6 to get the same sweat factor as zumba..and frankly the elliptical is boring.I can only stand 30 minutes at a time. hey give a shout out if you are alive out there too!
Sunday, November 14, 2010
Tuesday, October 26, 2010
On vacation
I am off of work this week and frankly I could get used to this.I like having time to do things and getting them done.I have a million little projects that wait for me .I am not getting to all of them but I will make a list and cross them off as i accomplish one.I am making sure I have time for physical activity this week too.Every.Single.Day. Twice a day if I can do it.
I went hot tubbing last night with someone I have not seen in a while and he mentioned how much weight I have lost! yay it is noticeable.At dinner last week a close friend said,"You are getting so skinny...I hate you "No she did not really mean it but it is great to be envied.
Weigh in this morning is 212.6.Yay. I am so close to my first goal of 210.When i reach that I will send my comfy chair to be reupholstered and by the time it gets back I wil be at my supper-but-not-final-goal of 199#I know it is not a magic number but just not to be two---something.I will never be a delicate flower that some man will toss over his shoulder but to know someone may consider it at least would be nice.
My appetite continues to be much smaller.I am smply content with less.I threw away most of a cinnabon caramel bar yesterday....GASP...Something I never would have done 6 months ago.
I am reading yet another book This one is "Mindless eating" by Brian Wansink Ph.D.It explores the psychology of why we eat too much,our dicernment of how much we are eating and how to correct that.Quite the fodder for the brain.
plans for this week include a live Rocky Horror Picture Show event,A drag Queen show,dinner out,more hot tubbing,a costume party and a date.A full week indeed.
I went hot tubbing last night with someone I have not seen in a while and he mentioned how much weight I have lost! yay it is noticeable.At dinner last week a close friend said,"You are getting so skinny...I hate you "No she did not really mean it but it is great to be envied.
Weigh in this morning is 212.6.Yay. I am so close to my first goal of 210.When i reach that I will send my comfy chair to be reupholstered and by the time it gets back I wil be at my supper-but-not-final-goal of 199#I know it is not a magic number but just not to be two---something.I will never be a delicate flower that some man will toss over his shoulder but to know someone may consider it at least would be nice.
My appetite continues to be much smaller.I am smply content with less.I threw away most of a cinnabon caramel bar yesterday....GASP...Something I never would have done 6 months ago.
I am reading yet another book This one is "Mindless eating" by Brian Wansink Ph.D.It explores the psychology of why we eat too much,our dicernment of how much we are eating and how to correct that.Quite the fodder for the brain.
plans for this week include a live Rocky Horror Picture Show event,A drag Queen show,dinner out,more hot tubbing,a costume party and a date.A full week indeed.
Wednesday, October 20, 2010
Sore Bum
Yes, My Bum It is sore.It is asking me WHY WHY??WHY!
So in an open letter to my sore bum I share with it and you gentle reader why.
Dear Bum,
I love you.It is not the love of an ardent romeo or mother to child but oneof acceptance.I am letting my love be known so i will move you,shake you,groove you and make you into something I LIKE as well as love.I am walking,stomping ,running and Zumbaing my way to a better BUM.I know I am shrinking your bottom line, but (ha ha) think of all the cute panties,skirts and tight jeans that will show case you! it is all for you.It is not punishment but discipline!
Your Mistress
So in an open letter to my sore bum I share with it and you gentle reader why.
Dear Bum,
I love you.It is not the love of an ardent romeo or mother to child but oneof acceptance.I am letting my love be known so i will move you,shake you,groove you and make you into something I LIKE as well as love.I am walking,stomping ,running and Zumbaing my way to a better BUM.I know I am shrinking your bottom line, but (ha ha) think of all the cute panties,skirts and tight jeans that will show case you! it is all for you.It is not punishment but discipline!
Your Mistress
Tuesday, October 19, 2010
two months in
I still have 356 days left to lose about 35 pounds.My losses are not as exciting as The Biggest Loser but it is happening.I am not as overweight as those contenstants either.I wonder how I would feel if I worked out as much as the conteatants do.I know now my bum aches and burns in ways I forgot existed.
Yesterday I went to zumba and took the dog for a long walk.Todayanother long walk plus the loop up Tiger Hill.
An interesting thing is happening.My appetite is decreasing.I want to eat while at work..which I am betting on is stress.At home I nibble but do not have the drive to consume like before.Is my stomach shrinking? Is the exercise shutting something off in my brain?I'll take it while it lasts...which will be right before my next period!
I am enjoying buying smaller scrubs and giving away the larger ones.It is tempting to keep things I have spent money on but I want to have no excuse to expand again.I want the discomfort of my waistband to be the warning I need to keep my bum moving.
Yesterday I went to zumba and took the dog for a long walk.Todayanother long walk plus the loop up Tiger Hill.
An interesting thing is happening.My appetite is decreasing.I want to eat while at work..which I am betting on is stress.At home I nibble but do not have the drive to consume like before.Is my stomach shrinking? Is the exercise shutting something off in my brain?I'll take it while it lasts...which will be right before my next period!
I am enjoying buying smaller scrubs and giving away the larger ones.It is tempting to keep things I have spent money on but I want to have no excuse to expand again.I want the discomfort of my waistband to be the warning I need to keep my bum moving.
Wednesday, October 13, 2010
can I do it?
I need to have a fitness goal.Not just the weight loss but to be able to accomplish something with my body I have never done before.I cruised the net and think I am going to do a 5 K run.I know I can walk 5 K but I am going to try dang hard to run it in one month.I know longer training time would be beneficial but winter is coming in these here Northern States and if I put it off it will not get done. I have been alternating walking and jogging the dog for a few weeks now.I am going to master a plan and do this.I put it here in the blog so I have at least JAFG holding me to it right?
I am down 13.8 pounds.That is a quarter of my goal!Pick up a 10# sack of potatoes and a 2# block of cheese and throw in a half gallon of icecream. That was extra all me.It certainly sounds more impressive put that way.
I have a weird question though.WHERE does it go?Is it sweat off? Do I poop it off? Do skinny faries come and harvest the excess while I sleep? tell me!!! Or don't.Just don't bring it back.
I had a great time last night with My sister-friend Jean.She took me out to a great dinner.We split a bottle of wine and dessert.I was flying happy after the first glass so quit there.We both ate less than half of our entrees and saved them for lunch another day.
I spoke to a friend who has had gastric bypass surgery.He told me of the minute portions he is consuming now,just due to the fact that his body can handle no more and a remark he made struck a note with me.He said,"Now I see how little the human body really needs to survive." Wow.maybe I need to think less of enjoyment and more of survival and fueling my body.Do you ask if you NEED the food you are reaching for or just want it?I do ot but I may start.I know a food journal is a good idea,but it peters out after a few days.Any input??
I am down 13.8 pounds.That is a quarter of my goal!Pick up a 10# sack of potatoes and a 2# block of cheese and throw in a half gallon of icecream. That was extra all me.It certainly sounds more impressive put that way.
I have a weird question though.WHERE does it go?Is it sweat off? Do I poop it off? Do skinny faries come and harvest the excess while I sleep? tell me!!! Or don't.Just don't bring it back.
I had a great time last night with My sister-friend Jean.She took me out to a great dinner.We split a bottle of wine and dessert.I was flying happy after the first glass so quit there.We both ate less than half of our entrees and saved them for lunch another day.
I spoke to a friend who has had gastric bypass surgery.He told me of the minute portions he is consuming now,just due to the fact that his body can handle no more and a remark he made struck a note with me.He said,"Now I see how little the human body really needs to survive." Wow.maybe I need to think less of enjoyment and more of survival and fueling my body.Do you ask if you NEED the food you are reaching for or just want it?I do ot but I may start.I know a food journal is a good idea,but it peters out after a few days.Any input??
Tuesday, October 12, 2010
Birthday!
Sunday was my 39th birthday.I am losing tiny amounts.Still a loss.I have celebrated moderately.
I learned my beloved i pod classic had a dead hard drive and the cost to repair it was beyond reasonable.Thus,I recycled it an got 10% off a nano which suits me better!.It clips to my clothes,has a built in pedometer,calorie counter and comes in neat funky colors!Did I mention it is dang cute?
Family and personal drama abounds.I will not allow it to knock me off course.I am strong.i am proud.I am progressing.I am becoming me again.Join me.
I learned my beloved i pod classic had a dead hard drive and the cost to repair it was beyond reasonable.Thus,I recycled it an got 10% off a nano which suits me better!.It clips to my clothes,has a built in pedometer,calorie counter and comes in neat funky colors!Did I mention it is dang cute?
Family and personal drama abounds.I will not allow it to knock me off course.I am strong.i am proud.I am progressing.I am becoming me again.Join me.
Tuesday, October 5, 2010
Shame on me
I did not realize how much I have been neglecting this blog!I have had no weight break throughs,nor any real breakDowns.
I have been thinking on what my zumba instructor keeps saying about reaching out and grabbing those calories that are just for the taking and to not hold back.We all steal beg and borrow time for ourselves and we need to use it to its fullest.She is quite motivational.An hour after I work out I am fully recovered.So why not go as hard as I can.i do have a problem though...I have urine leakage when i do some jumps and bouncing.i drink so much water,it is impossible to fully empty my bladder.I wear a pad but I fear it will leak out my clothes.i am still trying to do the elliptical on the days I do not zumba.The rain has made it hard to do the long walk and Tiger hill but I have managed twice this week already.
Okay this book " The End of Overeating ,taking Control of the Insatiable American Appetite " touched a chord with me.In the beginning in interviewed people in the presence of some delectable treat and many had difficulty ignoring the chocolate or cookie to complete the interview becoming noticeably fidgety and distracted.they were asked why and most readily admitted they were obsessed with preoccupation with the food.
How many of us have been like this?I have.I recall not having had lunch yet,concentrating on what I could eat for dinner.It had to be pointed out to me how silly I was being. It did not end it though.WHY?
Food in this country is DESIGNED to keep us coming back for more,thus fat.Salt,sugar,and fat are layered in unnatural combinations to appeal to our pleasure centers and be addictive.The maximum reward--yumminess is calculated in proportion to the negative side effects( nausea,sluggishness,bloating) to keep us hooked.The trick restaurants use have nothing to do with healthful food but bottom dollars.We are nothing but income and money does not come from occasional customers but those who come back repeatedly.It pays to super size for the industry.We enjoy the product,think we are getting a good deal,all the while harming our bodies!
In the end what can we do?Resisting these foods are nigh impossible as they are intended.There is no little amount you can cheat.Take your danger foods out of those equation.For me, I cannot allow chips or chocolate in my realm or I am de railed.There is no ."just a little" for me.
what to do instead?Exercise.It is reward on many levels.I feel and look better.I feel sexier.I feel powerful,sleek and it negates the urge to have a mouthful of artificial food.the book is much more motivational than I am.It focussed me.please open your eyes.See what you CAN do for YOU.You are NOT helpless.Educate yourself and learn to defend your body.
I have been thinking on what my zumba instructor keeps saying about reaching out and grabbing those calories that are just for the taking and to not hold back.We all steal beg and borrow time for ourselves and we need to use it to its fullest.She is quite motivational.An hour after I work out I am fully recovered.So why not go as hard as I can.i do have a problem though...I have urine leakage when i do some jumps and bouncing.i drink so much water,it is impossible to fully empty my bladder.I wear a pad but I fear it will leak out my clothes.i am still trying to do the elliptical on the days I do not zumba.The rain has made it hard to do the long walk and Tiger hill but I have managed twice this week already.
Okay this book " The End of Overeating ,taking Control of the Insatiable American Appetite " touched a chord with me.In the beginning in interviewed people in the presence of some delectable treat and many had difficulty ignoring the chocolate or cookie to complete the interview becoming noticeably fidgety and distracted.they were asked why and most readily admitted they were obsessed with preoccupation with the food.
How many of us have been like this?I have.I recall not having had lunch yet,concentrating on what I could eat for dinner.It had to be pointed out to me how silly I was being. It did not end it though.WHY?
Food in this country is DESIGNED to keep us coming back for more,thus fat.Salt,sugar,and fat are layered in unnatural combinations to appeal to our pleasure centers and be addictive.The maximum reward--yumminess is calculated in proportion to the negative side effects( nausea,sluggishness,bloating) to keep us hooked.The trick restaurants use have nothing to do with healthful food but bottom dollars.We are nothing but income and money does not come from occasional customers but those who come back repeatedly.It pays to super size for the industry.We enjoy the product,think we are getting a good deal,all the while harming our bodies!
In the end what can we do?Resisting these foods are nigh impossible as they are intended.There is no little amount you can cheat.Take your danger foods out of those equation.For me, I cannot allow chips or chocolate in my realm or I am de railed.There is no ."just a little" for me.
what to do instead?Exercise.It is reward on many levels.I feel and look better.I feel sexier.I feel powerful,sleek and it negates the urge to have a mouthful of artificial food.the book is much more motivational than I am.It focussed me.please open your eyes.See what you CAN do for YOU.You are NOT helpless.Educate yourself and learn to defend your body.
Friday, September 24, 2010
good news!
I am down to 218.2.Runs around the room waving my arms and whooping.Very good news indeed.Two weeks ago I felt like this was a battle I could not make advancement in.I ,in the interest of fairness do have to report that I have eaten some bad things in the last month.I am relying on you to hear my confession.I cleaned out my car and realized I ate TWO large containers of pringles...all by myself.Work is a particular difficult place.The social worker keeps a bucket...not just a bowl of assorted brightly wrapped chocolates .I stop by the chocolate bucket and grab a handful whenever I feel stressed,which is ofton and those yummy little buggers add up.AND there is always some occasion for food to be brought in.There was a staff meeting so I had ultimate chocolate cake,family brought in gormet cookies and there are all the pot lucks.
I feel bad about all of it because my body WANTS to be healthy and I have been working against it.Despite all my treachery, it still managed to lose weight. I will not further undermine my own efforts.I want to find out what can be accomplished if I am not cheating.
I am impressed by this book The end of overeating.I will share my review and all the helpful ideas I got from the book in hopefully the next post.I borrowed the book from the library but think I may end up buying it.It is that good!
I need your help.I want to have a non food reward for getting to 210#.I already have one for 199# which is to have a chair I love reupholstered.It doesn't have to be huge, but significant enough that I want to strive for it.A massage? A pedicure? I am open to any ideas.
I feel bad about all of it because my body WANTS to be healthy and I have been working against it.Despite all my treachery, it still managed to lose weight. I will not further undermine my own efforts.I want to find out what can be accomplished if I am not cheating.
I am impressed by this book The end of overeating.I will share my review and all the helpful ideas I got from the book in hopefully the next post.I borrowed the book from the library but think I may end up buying it.It is that good!
I need your help.I want to have a non food reward for getting to 210#.I already have one for 199# which is to have a chair I love reupholstered.It doesn't have to be huge, but significant enough that I want to strive for it.A massage? A pedicure? I am open to any ideas.
Tuesday, September 21, 2010
A picture,finally
This is me on my 38th birthday, So a little less than a year ago.I think I am about the same weight as I was then.It will give a general Idea where I am starting.I will have to post pictures of when I was 250# .Twenty five pounds does make quite an impact on most peoples frames.I have pictures of when I was post divorce and 170s #(Stress is a wonderful diet aid)As You can see 220# or so on me doesnt "look bad" as I hear all the time.I do not want to be content with not looking bad but want to also look and FEEL great.I am reading a book on how America overeats because the food industry DESIGNS food so we crave it,overeat and then get MORE.Does it make you mad?It sure gets me irate.I will post the name of the book and the full review.make good choices! nourish your body,soul and love yourself like you are your best girlfriend!
Monday, September 20, 2010
Drum Rolllllllllllllll!
Please, I would like to welcome a Follower! yes, JAFG if my first follower on blogger ! (I will keep her and love her and pet her and name her George!) Okay..I am excited , yes?But the main object of this post is to say TODAY is actually three hundred eighty five days until I am 40!The blog finally fits its name.
I did get another scale and I do like it much better.I have doubts about the fat percentage feature on it.I find the number just unbelevable.perhaps I should do research to see what a reasonable fat persentage is and extrapolate from there.You can see I am hedging can't you ? yeah.Its because I AM.The number makes me queasy and want to eat saw dust with hummus on it only for a few months.Come closer and I will whisper it to you....it says I am almost 50% FAT! My hydration level on this scale was low about 35% so I wonder what the truth of it all is.I will keep you posted.
I should post some photos and get your input on all of this.
I walked around the building and up an incline for my lunch break and will be going to Zumba tonight before taking my sons out to dinner for the younger ones birthday.I promise to eat healthy.I bet I can find a dish that is yummy and in my guidelines.
Has anyone had experience with WW? I see all those ads and DANG Jennifer Hudson looks awesome.She does not look like she was ever related to herself! Is being responsible to many people and having a formula to follow a key? I wait for the big cosmic click of it all where I unzip this padding and step out of my former body and gush how I discovered the secret to slimness just a week ago!
I wonder if I will look older as I lose the weight.Fat is a great filler. I do not want to be a haggard looking wench but at the same time Who wants to be the wallflower feeling frumpy and unhappy?
OH BTW< I will be going back to blonde tomorrow.I have had red hair long enough and am ready to be back in familiar territory.
I did get another scale and I do like it much better.I have doubts about the fat percentage feature on it.I find the number just unbelevable.perhaps I should do research to see what a reasonable fat persentage is and extrapolate from there.You can see I am hedging can't you ? yeah.Its because I AM.The number makes me queasy and want to eat saw dust with hummus on it only for a few months.Come closer and I will whisper it to you....it says I am almost 50% FAT! My hydration level on this scale was low about 35% so I wonder what the truth of it all is.I will keep you posted.
I should post some photos and get your input on all of this.
I walked around the building and up an incline for my lunch break and will be going to Zumba tonight before taking my sons out to dinner for the younger ones birthday.I promise to eat healthy.I bet I can find a dish that is yummy and in my guidelines.
Has anyone had experience with WW? I see all those ads and DANG Jennifer Hudson looks awesome.She does not look like she was ever related to herself! Is being responsible to many people and having a formula to follow a key? I wait for the big cosmic click of it all where I unzip this padding and step out of my former body and gush how I discovered the secret to slimness just a week ago!
I wonder if I will look older as I lose the weight.Fat is a great filler. I do not want to be a haggard looking wench but at the same time Who wants to be the wallflower feeling frumpy and unhappy?
OH BTW< I will be going back to blonde tomorrow.I have had red hair long enough and am ready to be back in familiar territory.
Thursday, September 16, 2010
Deep breath
First of all..Is anyone out there?Am I just yammering for myself?Thats okay if I am just wondering,I promise not to feel like the kid who invited everyone to their birthday party and noone showed up.
I have had a terribly stressful week at work.I have been yanked into doing another job i was not hired for and told to "buck up".Hm.If I did not have straight days and good pay i would tell them to cram it.Noone is manning my station while I am gone and therefore the load when I get back will be horrendus.I am not looking forward to it.The boss wants to talk to me about how I fee.Heh."hang in there,things will get better"
There is more to it than I am laying down here but the end result is I ate a ton of chocolate this week to combat the frustration,stress and pain of being straight on my feet all day.
I need to get a new scale.Mine is all over the place and I would merely like a correct reading to know where I am.I think I will have to part with some hard cash to get thenaccuracy this weight loss journey calls for.
Side note: Should I document fluctuations in my weight or just the losses?the fluctuations may help me chart my monthly.dunno.
389 days til I am 40.Getting close to the blog title.heh.
I have had a terribly stressful week at work.I have been yanked into doing another job i was not hired for and told to "buck up".Hm.If I did not have straight days and good pay i would tell them to cram it.Noone is manning my station while I am gone and therefore the load when I get back will be horrendus.I am not looking forward to it.The boss wants to talk to me about how I fee.Heh."hang in there,things will get better"
There is more to it than I am laying down here but the end result is I ate a ton of chocolate this week to combat the frustration,stress and pain of being straight on my feet all day.
I need to get a new scale.Mine is all over the place and I would merely like a correct reading to know where I am.I think I will have to part with some hard cash to get thenaccuracy this weight loss journey calls for.
Side note: Should I document fluctuations in my weight or just the losses?the fluctuations may help me chart my monthly.dunno.
389 days til I am 40.Getting close to the blog title.heh.
Tuesday, September 14, 2010
confusion and serenity
Confused? yes.IThe scale has me all over the place from 219 to 230.I am not sure where I am in my womanly cycle so I am not able yet to lay blame at the feet of Mother Nature.I am still being told I look more toned/thinner.I felt my body while I was in bed and I do believe I can feel my ribs (ALMOST!) I do not think I am in the next size down but I am out of the liars stage of the size I have been wearing,namely I really ought to have been in the next size up but refused to admit it.I am wearing my clothes comfortably.
I have gone from being a 38 DD to a 38D.Am I unhappy about losing my boobage?Not so much because I know thats what goes first,next belly? thighs? I am game.
I saw myself naked in the mirror today and realized how sorely those 40-50 # need to come off.
I made been and roasted red pepper burgers tonight.Overall I ate well today I took brom for a walk and climbed Tiger Hill.I think of my trudge uphill as my feet in four wheel drive digging into the dirt and just grabbing at the earth.It is satisfying everytime I get to the top.Yesterday I went to Zumba for an hour.Zumba helps me to feel sexy and in touch with my body.
I notice I am down to 391 days til I become 40.
My Dear friend E is having trouble with her weight journey.She has had an eating disorder in her past and does not want to go to that extreme again to be thin.I can see that concern.I don't want to be so militant that I have no ability to think outside my plan .Do I have to be so single minded that I become unhealthy ,regimented and go from overeating to nazivegan.
I have noticed when I go on long arduous walks I experience ease of thought and am able to explore ideas that cannot summon any other part of the day.I notice the sweet pea flowers entwined in the fence also covered in buoys.I wish I coul channel my thoughts as I walk into this blog.it would be such good material.
I have gone from being a 38 DD to a 38D.Am I unhappy about losing my boobage?Not so much because I know thats what goes first,next belly? thighs? I am game.
I saw myself naked in the mirror today and realized how sorely those 40-50 # need to come off.
I made been and roasted red pepper burgers tonight.Overall I ate well today I took brom for a walk and climbed Tiger Hill.I think of my trudge uphill as my feet in four wheel drive digging into the dirt and just grabbing at the earth.It is satisfying everytime I get to the top.Yesterday I went to Zumba for an hour.Zumba helps me to feel sexy and in touch with my body.
I notice I am down to 391 days til I become 40.
My Dear friend E is having trouble with her weight journey.She has had an eating disorder in her past and does not want to go to that extreme again to be thin.I can see that concern.I don't want to be so militant that I have no ability to think outside my plan .Do I have to be so single minded that I become unhealthy ,regimented and go from overeating to nazivegan.
I have noticed when I go on long arduous walks I experience ease of thought and am able to explore ideas that cannot summon any other part of the day.I notice the sweet pea flowers entwined in the fence also covered in buoys.I wish I coul channel my thoughts as I walk into this blog.it would be such good material.
Saturday, September 11, 2010
Figuring out what I am doing right
I have Lost weight in the last two weeks..I am talking seriously 10 TEN! pounds here! Is it the fact I have been mindful of increasing my Vegan Protein diet? Is it that I added the Tiger Hill walk to my routine? It definately is not lowered stress or more sleep.I want to pin point this so I can keep it up! !(199 # Here I come! ,but we all know the ultimate goal is 180 #)
Sunday, September 5, 2010
a weeks summary!
Seth and I did go to the State Fair and I was pretty tame only splurging on a wine slushie and some taffy.I love watching them make it right in front of me on that old fashioned puller and seeing it drop in the basket from the auto wrapper. I did get a sunburn on my chest and back. I did not count on the sun being directly overhead.We had to leave early,it was just so uncomfortable we were sapped of energy and the desire to have fun.
Zumba was cancelled two days this week due to the heat .because of the heat, I was not inclined to get motivated on my own.This weekend was a different story !Saturday being cooler, I went to Zumba and then walked Brom for 2.5 miles and UP Tiger Hill.For those who do not know Tiger Hill is legendary for being steep and a pain to get up with any mode of transportation.There is even a childrens book about a Bus making it up the Hill in the Winter.I felt every inch of the Hill in my Butt and thighs.Today I did 30 minutes on the elliptical AND did the walk with the Tiger Hill in the end.Over all the eating has been good.
I am thinking of adding lemon to my water as a natural diuretic.SOme of the dishes I have been making have olives and capers in them .I feel like I have fat little feet when I wake up.
I am considering weight watchers.I see so many people have used it with success.I have never been on a structured program before.I see jennifer Hudson now and WOW she looks amazing.
I know things get assigned point values and you have to take your vitamin and water for the day all good things but those meetings must be magic because it all seems common sense of what I know.
Good News! They are offering Zumba in Clifton Springs on Tuesday and Fridays now.I can make up a class I missed no problem.I am much more on track when I am moving.I am concious of my body and what I am putting in it.
I want new scrubs but will wait because I do not intend to sink a fortune in several different sizes. I will get rid of things that are too big and wear what flatters me.Here I come.
I am fixated on being under 200.199 seems like a dream to me. I have not been under 200 since the divorce from the kids father.Not to have a 2 in front of my weight will be a pure bliss for me. One anything will fell smaller, sexier and manageable.
Up coming posts...weight loss surgery and feeling frumpy!
Zumba was cancelled two days this week due to the heat .because of the heat, I was not inclined to get motivated on my own.This weekend was a different story !Saturday being cooler, I went to Zumba and then walked Brom for 2.5 miles and UP Tiger Hill.For those who do not know Tiger Hill is legendary for being steep and a pain to get up with any mode of transportation.There is even a childrens book about a Bus making it up the Hill in the Winter.I felt every inch of the Hill in my Butt and thighs.Today I did 30 minutes on the elliptical AND did the walk with the Tiger Hill in the end.Over all the eating has been good.
I am thinking of adding lemon to my water as a natural diuretic.SOme of the dishes I have been making have olives and capers in them .I feel like I have fat little feet when I wake up.
I am considering weight watchers.I see so many people have used it with success.I have never been on a structured program before.I see jennifer Hudson now and WOW she looks amazing.
I know things get assigned point values and you have to take your vitamin and water for the day all good things but those meetings must be magic because it all seems common sense of what I know.
Good News! They are offering Zumba in Clifton Springs on Tuesday and Fridays now.I can make up a class I missed no problem.I am much more on track when I am moving.I am concious of my body and what I am putting in it.
I want new scrubs but will wait because I do not intend to sink a fortune in several different sizes. I will get rid of things that are too big and wear what flatters me.Here I come.
I am fixated on being under 200.199 seems like a dream to me. I have not been under 200 since the divorce from the kids father.Not to have a 2 in front of my weight will be a pure bliss for me. One anything will fell smaller, sexier and manageable.
Up coming posts...weight loss surgery and feeling frumpy!
Tuesday, August 31, 2010
I spent 4 hours ( a relatively short time, considering) in the emergency dept last night with my Dad.He has a considerable heart history.I am on the phone with him now in fact.Now I recall why I hated my childhood.He fixates and blusters with no solutions in all he says.Alot of vicious words,threats,sputtering, and wind .He has big words and no actions.I did find out my gramma has Stomach cancer.I grew up next to her.She looks so frail now.She does not want me to know,so I have to tread lightly in my dealings.
I feel slimmer.The scale finally moved today.226.4.I am not sure what caused the move but I like it.My clothes are a bit looser.I need to keep up the high level of activity and keep an eye on my food intake.Curiously, I have not had as much of an appetite as of late.
My son and I are going to the state fair today, so temptations abound!I love love love the food court but will be sure to have healthy snacks on the way there.It is hot and sticky so I will be sure to wear sun protection and wear a big hat .
I feel slimmer.The scale finally moved today.226.4.I am not sure what caused the move but I like it.My clothes are a bit looser.I need to keep up the high level of activity and keep an eye on my food intake.Curiously, I have not had as much of an appetite as of late.
My son and I are going to the state fair today, so temptations abound!I love love love the food court but will be sure to have healthy snacks on the way there.It is hot and sticky so I will be sure to wear sun protection and wear a big hat .
Friday, August 27, 2010
it is Friday and I am off!
Last night I indulged and the scale reflected it this morning.I am hoping it is a case of too much sodium.I went out for Indian food and had a wonderful paneer dish with a sauce I could not get enough of.I also enjoyed garlic naan and some masala tea.I know I had too much because I was stuffed.I should have listened to my body and its cues.I walked Brom about a mile yesterday.I did little exercise other than that.
I have a goal today of doing 30 minutes on the elliptical; and taking Brom for a long walk later. I am blanching tomatoes at the moment for freezing.The dogs have been eating produce from the garden whenever possible.I thinks its kinda funny but also a bit annoying to find bite marks in a nice cucumber !.I might make a curry tonight or some tobouli with my garden rewards.I measures my hips, arms ,thighs and waist today.I have gotten several comments on my "weight loss" But the scale has not budged.I figure I may have to keep track else how lest I get discouraged with the scale.(I am wondering if I ought to purchase a different scale.)
I have a goal today of doing 30 minutes on the elliptical; and taking Brom for a long walk later. I am blanching tomatoes at the moment for freezing.The dogs have been eating produce from the garden whenever possible.I thinks its kinda funny but also a bit annoying to find bite marks in a nice cucumber !.I might make a curry tonight or some tobouli with my garden rewards.I measures my hips, arms ,thighs and waist today.I have gotten several comments on my "weight loss" But the scale has not budged.I figure I may have to keep track else how lest I get discouraged with the scale.(I am wondering if I ought to purchase a different scale.)
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
hump day
I did not do the elliptical last night as planned.i walked brom all over town and up hills.That was enough for me.I did use the elliptical this morning and go to Zumba tonight. I made a tofu/berry/banana smoothie for breakfast and had to scrounge for lunch because I forgot my meal I packed.I had a fuit salad,a yogurt with fruit and two individual packages of fig newtons.Dinner was caribbean tofu/snow pea/mushroom stirfry with sesame seeds.YUMMY.I am so tired I know I will sleep like the dead.getting up at 430 can do that to you.I plan on riding along the Erie canal tomorrow after work,so i will not get up early for the elliptical.
When i was walking Brom I saw a man getting ready to put a kayack in the creek ( pronounced CRICK around here)I am intrigued,having done some kayacking and white water rafting I have a little experience with it.I may have to take the plunge and buy some equipment so I can explore that further ! i love the freedom of the water and the different view of nature.The more choices i have for excercise the better.I will not get bored and i will stick to an active life style.
When i was walking Brom I saw a man getting ready to put a kayack in the creek ( pronounced CRICK around here)I am intrigued,having done some kayacking and white water rafting I have a little experience with it.I may have to take the plunge and buy some equipment so I can explore that further ! i love the freedom of the water and the different view of nature.The more choices i have for excercise the better.I will not get bored and i will stick to an active life style.
Tuesday, August 24, 2010
can i do this?
I know my goal is totally doable.It is ME holding me back one way or another.i need o prevent any self sabotage.I am reading this book Sugar Blues ,written in the 1970's about the history of refined sugar,how it has shaped politics and changed our health landscape.I am reading a bit slow but it is definitely a book I need to take to heart.I have 4 Dunkin Donuts munchkins today and five bite sized pieces of chocolate.it all does add up to one big blob of sugar.
On a better note,i went to zumba last night and sweat myself silly.I am always super red in the face and look like I am on the verge of a stroke...but hey that is how I roll!I made a deep dish polenta pizza with sauteed zucchini,mushrooms and red bell pepper with yummy spices,fresh tomato slices...Mmmmmmm I had some for lunch today.My goal for the rest of the day is to eat mindfully,walk Brom a few miles and to do 30 minutes on the treadmill.i may freeze a few batches of tomatoes ,and zucchini too.
I am having some wicked stomach cramps today>I wonder if from the candy I ate.
I am going to nap for a few and thenget to my list.(hoping I can stay on track here.)More to post soon..
Ohthe good news is several people at work say they have noticed I look thinner.The scale does not concur,but maybe i am mixing things up enough that my body is changing.
On a better note,i went to zumba last night and sweat myself silly.I am always super red in the face and look like I am on the verge of a stroke...but hey that is how I roll!I made a deep dish polenta pizza with sauteed zucchini,mushrooms and red bell pepper with yummy spices,fresh tomato slices...Mmmmmmm I had some for lunch today.My goal for the rest of the day is to eat mindfully,walk Brom a few miles and to do 30 minutes on the treadmill.i may freeze a few batches of tomatoes ,and zucchini too.
I am having some wicked stomach cramps today>I wonder if from the candy I ate.
I am going to nap for a few and thenget to my list.(hoping I can stay on track here.)More to post soon..
Ohthe good news is several people at work say they have noticed I look thinner.The scale does not concur,but maybe i am mixing things up enough that my body is changing.
Monday, August 23, 2010
Monday
So far it looks like the typical monday if I were to stereotype one.Yesterday was a day of very good,good and some not so good choices.Very Good:I did 30 minutes on the elliptical AND walked/jogged the dog 3 miles I also took my vitamins.Good:I got a pedicure instead of buying stuff i did not need,in addition I introduced Jean to the pleasures of self pampering.We both got french tip pedis!.It was funney as the male technition kept digging dirt from my toe nails from all the bare foot gardening!Also good:No sugar in my coffee , I made an awesome eggplant curry in coconut milk for the first time,and I finished 3 lanyards for sale .It was a hit.Not so good:I had a slice of lemon pound cake with my coffee.I spent more money than I should have.Off to work .
Saturday, August 21, 2010
summary
Today...or yesterday by now was NOT a healthful day for eating. I went to zumba on an empty stomach because all that moving makes me ill.My stomach has been iffy all day with sporadic diarrhea. I did not help matters by having half a bag of animal crackers. I had a few slivers of cantalope I was cutting up to freeze. i made a little sweet red pepper and tofu stir fry. I was then on the HUNT. SWEEETS, give me sweets! I ended up with a handful of goddamned chocolate sprinkles.I rounded out the day with about a third of a cup of corn nuts, some dark chcolate covered ginger and a coconut milk ice cream bar (100 calories!)
I am a mess!.Sunday will be better.Of this I am sure.I will drink more water, take my vitamin and focus on the health of it.
In other news I looked at my belly when I was sitting down and it looks too much like a blob of dough for my liking.I have always been blessed with a relatively flat tummy but this weight is now stretching my body past its norm.I wished I coiuld have pulled that belly blob right off and left it there.I want to unzip this flab suit and step out a svelt me . Action time it is !!
I am a mess!.Sunday will be better.Of this I am sure.I will drink more water, take my vitamin and focus on the health of it.
In other news I looked at my belly when I was sitting down and it looks too much like a blob of dough for my liking.I have always been blessed with a relatively flat tummy but this weight is now stretching my body past its norm.I wished I coiuld have pulled that belly blob right off and left it there.I want to unzip this flab suit and step out a svelt me . Action time it is !!
OOPS-415!
I am so Sorry folks!I forgot next month was NOT my birthday until I put up the countdown clock.I am not going to change the title or address of the blog.I have a little longer to reach my goal is all.OH! My book on sugar addiction arrived! I am spending the day either between freezing my garden produce and getting my college plan finalized.I have tomato skins every where and am trotting freezer bags of tomatoes and melons to my new chest freezer in the basement.I sure hope this means much happy and healthy eating this winter!
385 days
Somehow in my sleep I had productive dreams.I realizes that in 385 days from this date I will turn forty!I am not scared of forty.I am not looking forward to it either as some people pronounce to prove getting older does't scare the shit out of them.It is coming whatever my attitude is.It is a fact.True as the stubble on my unshaven legs.
It is also a fact that I am over weight.I am 230.8# this morning, stark naked on the scale first thing.I always weight naked at home.The doctor's office knows now just to ask what I weight because I will be honest and I WON'T get on the scale clothed at the office ( come to think of it unclothed either !)
I am over 5'9" and the weight is evenly distributed so people have a hard time believing the actual number.I feel it though.I hate this extra layer I am wearing.I have been skinny once and it was in a fit of extreme depression and anorexia,ergo unhealthy.
I am active.I am still wallowing in the sweat of an hours long zumba class ,in fact.I walk my samoyed,Brom daily about 2 to 4 miles.
I am working on being completely vegan. I have my lapses with dairy...and sweets.I know the sugar demon is my down fall.I ordered a book from Amazon on how to break the addiction to sugar.I am looking forward to cracking it open and seeing if the advice rings true and helps me.(Besides that I LOVE! packages.I swear sometimes I order things just so I can open a package)
The purpose of this blog is to get me to the fabulous fit me before I turn forty on October 10,2011.COme join me on this journey.
I am not sure what my final goal is but 50# is sticking in my head.To be 180# at forty.
I will post now pics,goal pics,thoughts and all kinds of nifty details along the way.
Today is off to a a good start with execise already.My goal today is to keep a food journal and keep myself accountable.Please join me,comment,complain..get inspiration,give inspiration.
It is also a fact that I am over weight.I am 230.8# this morning, stark naked on the scale first thing.I always weight naked at home.The doctor's office knows now just to ask what I weight because I will be honest and I WON'T get on the scale clothed at the office ( come to think of it unclothed either !)
I am over 5'9" and the weight is evenly distributed so people have a hard time believing the actual number.I feel it though.I hate this extra layer I am wearing.I have been skinny once and it was in a fit of extreme depression and anorexia,ergo unhealthy.
I am active.I am still wallowing in the sweat of an hours long zumba class ,in fact.I walk my samoyed,Brom daily about 2 to 4 miles.
I am working on being completely vegan. I have my lapses with dairy...and sweets.I know the sugar demon is my down fall.I ordered a book from Amazon on how to break the addiction to sugar.I am looking forward to cracking it open and seeing if the advice rings true and helps me.(Besides that I LOVE! packages.I swear sometimes I order things just so I can open a package)
The purpose of this blog is to get me to the fabulous fit me before I turn forty on October 10,2011.COme join me on this journey.
I am not sure what my final goal is but 50# is sticking in my head.To be 180# at forty.
I will post now pics,goal pics,thoughts and all kinds of nifty details along the way.
Today is off to a a good start with execise already.My goal today is to keep a food journal and keep myself accountable.Please join me,comment,complain..get inspiration,give inspiration.
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